Its been too long since I have posted here. I took a break . August is hot sticky and a terrible reminder of loss. I have never been a fan of the month, to me its the end of so many things I enjoy, Summer freedom, fresh flowers, children out of school, warm weather . So I chose not to share during August. Then, we had a fantastic family wedding for my cousin, a wonderful 4 day event in the Finger Lakes over Labor Day weekend. My attention was on family and fun. It was truly beautiful to see them it made my heart sing. Mike, my partner, laughing and enjoying my family, getting to know them better, what a blessing. In September many obligations took my attention, all exacting a toll on time, mood and energy. When I looked up again it was October.
Whatever the trigger , the dark hand of grief is firmly holding me. Our missing loved ones leave a huge hole in the fabric of family. A hole that can never be patched. I can't imagine we will ever stop wishing they were here. Thats when the demons , the what if's , reach out of their holes and pull me in. This is how it is with grief. It can sneak up on you. We can learn to deal with it, accept it, move forward , learn to let light and dark coexist, feel joy but we will never stop missing them. This is how love works. Even with all this pain it was still worth it. I would do it all over again just to experience the love.So here I am working through it , again! Not back at square one but still dealing with things I and hoped would have passed with time. I am still finding strength and gaining wisdom from
those that went before me.
I have several great posts in the works. Stay tuned. I deeply appreciate your presence here.
Love and Light
Sim
